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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

09.06.2025 16:59

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And i lived it daily.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Is it true that most women like alpha males?

She wouldn,t have been !

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I was very sick at this time too.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Why is my Whirlpool fridge not cooling but the freezer works? What is the solution?

When she asked me how she looked .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

How can a man clean his Soul?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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My family never makes their pension either.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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But it wasn’t much.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I will be 64.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I could never make a relationship work though!

All the time i was locked up.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I said to her

I was scared of men, in general

She was in good health!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Ive learnt so much.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Im still living with it.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

So whats the point in blame.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

What did i know ?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He knew the spot.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Was to survive, this bastard.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was 9 years of age.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My life is so biszare .

Who then, do I blame.?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

This is soul school!.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

(And it was in our own minds.)

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I had hoped to write a book about this .

We were not on the streets..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

So, i spoilt her more .

Comes on , in middle age.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I have no regrets .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One cannot live in the past .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

It was going to be , some day.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Put me off passion for life!!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I waited trembling.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She found it foreign!.

I write beautiful poetry .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She married twice! .

Why did i forgive my father ?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He resisted the act ,that day.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I think the readers, may guess!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Would this be the day?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was seconnd youngest,

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

She loved him until the end.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I don,t even have a pension.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But, we were locked up after school.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

We all went to grammer schools

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?